Saturday, December 20, 2008

A realisation and the hope

As i look back, the first one was almost as long as three years, then three months and the last one just about three days. Hopefully the final nail in the coffin is going to mean not more than three hours.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Conversations in the train

Most recent one:

u: Hello
me: *polite smile and a nod of acceptance*
u: kaise ho
me: ji main theek hoon, aap kaise hain
*my phone rings*
me: excuse me
*conv gets over on the phone, but not with u yet*
u: kedi jagah de (h)o
me: Bangalore
u: o, hindi kahan seekhi
me: ghar pe hindi mein hi baat karte hain
u: achha
u: to yahan job karde (h)o
me: ji haan
u: to kinni salary mildi hai yahaan
me: oh main yahan short term ke liye hoon, to mujhe salary india mein hi milti hai, yahaan nahi
u: phir bhi kitna save kar lete ho yahaan aake?
me: jitna milta hai uska almost half to save ho hi jaata hai
u: achha, kinna lamba trip hai yahan
me: main yahan sirf 3 months ke liye hoon
u: achha! kyun yahan settle ho jaao, achhi jagah hai
me: umm, filhaal to main india mein hi rehna chahti hoon
u: kyun, india ke halaat achhe nahi hain aajkal, yahaan achha ladka dhoondh ke shaadi kar lo, settle ho jaao
u: shaadi ho gayi tumhari?
me: nahi
u: umar kinni hai tumhari
me: 26
u: bilkul sahi umar hai shaadi ke liye, koi ladka pasand nahi aaya abhi tak?
me: err umm ...
u: gurudwara dekha yahan
me: ji nahi abhi tak to nahi dekha
u: bahut achha hai, dekhna ho to mujhe phone kar dena, number likho mera
me: oh ok bataiye number
*typed the number on my phone, he calls his number from my phone*
u: achha ye number save kar do mere phone mein
me: umm ok *typed my name and saved it*
u: *little surprised look* mohammedan ho?
me: ji haan
u: to shaadi bhi mohammedan se hi karoge?
me: umm, haan,, shayad
u: achha... gurudwara zaroor dekhna jaakar, mujhe phone kar dena, main dikha laoonga tumhe
me: *polite smile* ok thank you
mera station aa gaya, bye

Somebody asked me sometime, 'what is the best way to deal with you when you are angry'. And i said, just say something ridiculously funny. And this conversation with a random stranger in the train, an old man from punjab, had come at the perfect time. On a regular day, it would have qualified to be a rant. But on this day, it made my mind go off the angry, sad, contemplative, hopeful, wishful and all other jumbles of thouhgts that it was in. It was back to mindless chatter in the head. And the evening was happier than it had set out to be :)


Another one that i remember, and will probably always remember:

I was solving a cryptic puzzle, had already solved almost half of it (the hard work at office). So i had a whole lot of digital codes on my sheet of paper and was decoding them rather quickly 'coz the logic was already figured out. Once i was done, i proudly wrote down the final answer in bold letters, beamed a smile and looked up. The guy sitting next to me was intently looking at the sheet, i noticed; and then he asked me what is the nicest thing a stranger has ever said to me 'Are you a cryptologist?' I smiled from ear to ear the whole rest of the evening.

There are a few more of these that i'll remember my train journies fondly by. Back home, I miss this pleasant commute. But then I miss the noise here sometimes :)

Sunday, December 14, 2008

random tag

Self-tagged
From TGFI, for no specific reason. Maybe because i haven't blogged in a while, or maybe some other reason. I don't know.

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? No.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? my last trip here, this time i am absolutely fine.

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Hahhaha, once a senior was looking through my notebook in college canteen, and he commented 'you must've been really sleepy in this class', i sheepishly said 'yes' :D

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH? kadhi-chawal, chhole-chawal-dahi, bisi-bele-bhaath, biriyani...

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? No

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? If the old me wanted to be friends with the new me, i would love it!

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? Yeah.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Yes. WTF.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Must.

10.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Honey bunch of Almonds.

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Yes.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? DBC!

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Umm..If they smile enough or not, what they say, do they laugh at my joke or not :D

15. RED OR PINK? Red

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? I find it hard to express emotions, other than laughter and interest in any particular topic/thing and boredom and sleepiness and hunger!

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST ? I generally don't miss people or times too much.

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? I've already answered it all, why should you send it back to me?

19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? None right now. But all I have are browns and blacks.

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Chicken Marsalan it was called, i think.

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Hum to hain pardes mein, Abida Parveen.

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? White, completely useless, but still there.

23. FAVORITE SMELLS? earth after rain.

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Random marketing lady.

25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? Ofcourse, i love her. I sent it to myself, small credit can be given to tgfi :P

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Currently Tennis.

27. HAIR COLOUR? Black.

28. EYE COLOR? Black

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? No

30. FAVORITE FOOD? Most Indian food.

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy endings

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Dostana (quite funny and John Abraham is such a hottie)

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Purplish with black and silver stripes.

34. SUMMER OR WINTER? Bangalore weather. Or San Francisco is fine too :)

35. HUGS OR KISSES? Hugs from some, kisses from someone.

36. FAVORITE DESSERT? Roshogulla.

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? who what??

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? who what??

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? I don't have such good habits.

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? No mousepad.

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? Family Guy. Hilarious.

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Beatles

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME??? The US of A.

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? None :(

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? I was born at home, not in a hospital. Just one part of the detail that nobody needs to know anyway.

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? async

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Puzzle time!

One hundred prisoners and a warden agree to play the following game. Each day, starting tomorrow, the warden will select a prisoner at random and lead her to a room that contains nothing but a lamp standing in the center of the room. The prisoner may do one of three things:

1. Switch the lamp on if it is off, or switch it off if it is on, and then head back to her cell.

2. Do nothing and head back to her cell.

3. Announce: "All 100 prisoners have visited this room."

If a prisoner makes such an announcement, and she is correct, then all 100 prisoners will be set free. If not, all will be executed. The game will continue until someone makes an announcement.
Knowing that they are about to play, what strategy can the 100 prisoners agree upon to ensure their freedom? Assume that the lamp is initially on and that all prisoners know this. (Is there is a winning strategy even if the initial state of the lamp is not known?)


PS: This puzzle is from a book by Peter Winkler, and the solution will be posted once i can solve it or my copy of the book reaches me, whichever comes first (hopefully i'll be able to solve it myself).

>>Addendum:
So i wasnt able to solve it, and i could finally rest easy when i got a copy of the book. Select below text for solution.

The assumption is that no one fools with the room's light between visits by the prisoners. The prisoners don't need to know the initial state of the light. One prisoner (call her X) will always turn the light on whenever she goes in to the room, and each of the other prisoners, will turn it off the first two times that they find it on, otherwise leave it as is. After 2n-3 dark re-visits, the prisoner X can conclude that everyone has visited the room (n is ofcourse the number of prisoners).

Well that's the solution, you can still work on why is this the one that works.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Bucket list - 1

1. I want to see the sunrise.
2. Be able to dance.
3. Take a solo vacation.
4. Go on a really long road trip on a bike.
5. Own a big mean bike.
6. Learn to surf. Learn to swim first.
7. Score 3 pointers. consistently.
8. Learn juggling.
9. Go on a luxury cruise.
10. Experience snowfall.

...

Monday, September 29, 2008

Tolerance!

I must've been in std 8, what I do remember clearly is that it was called the 'Year of Tolerance'. That was the first and last time I heard of such worldwide promotion of a virtue. Either I shut my ears to it after that or it actually stopped happening, I can’t say. What I can say for sure is that speaking about it in an assembly full of impressionable young minds would have at least had a fraction of an impact on the person on stage and the whole rest of the assembly, as it did on me. It was mentioned ever so often throughout the year, you could see the word and its depictions at every noticeable corner. If it has stayed fresh in my memory till now, it surely must be in some way responsible for shaping me up this way. Yet I don’t see it as so much of a mass virtue, in people from my own school, in my circle of friends, in my general sphere of acquaintance. Did your school celebrate the year of tolerance; did it manage to linger on in your mind? Or is it just me?
Today, there are examples to no end that tell how intolerant a society we are living in, we don’t need to wait more than a week to see it raise its head in a new avatar. There are leaders and scholars that no longer know what to do with the titles and the obligations thereof. And then there are individuals amongst us, who leave their otherwise sound judgments, and go ahead and support such atrociousness. Whether in actions or in words, with each individual, such support takes the sentiment of hatred one step further. We need a big, bigger than the earlier one, tolerance movement. We need students growing up to such values, we need grown ups educating themselves on it, we need to nurture it as a mass virtue. We don’t have to start from the beginning; we can start from where we are right now and set it right from here. It seems possible to me! To you?

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

That's not how I would say it

'Thanks for bringing my it.' Strange usage of words by a colleague, to thank me for carrying a camera for him while travelling back here. I still am undecided about what i think about that sentence.

Then in the train, a guy says 'excuse us!'. He was alone. It was cute the way he said it :)

Now moving to some peeves..

Such colleagues i don't wish for anybody, or maybe if i have an enemy someday. She only had complains, about everything under the sun. She only talked to me about how annoyed she was about something, and she never fell short of troubles in her life to discuss with me. She also thought that 'my' life was pretty sad (which was partly true coz i had to listen to her everyday). She never saw anything positive about anything. But this one time it crossed all limits. I was telling her about how my roomie's boyfriend had been this wonderful guy, got her flowers and cake and champagne on the eve of her birthday and then prepared an elaborate and awesome lunch for the birthday. She heard this much and says 'Oh! he din't take her out to dinner, saving money probably!' I exactly knew whose head i wanted to bang to the wall, but did not do.

I don't know how people can ask for gifts. I can barely tolerate friends, real close ones saying that, but when we are the occassional 'hi, watsup!' kinds, i really really don't like seeing the 'what are you getting for me?'. I like giving gifts, but when someone asks for it, somehow it kills the joy in me of getting them a gift.

If you are trying to flirt, and all that you get in response is polite smiles, you should STOP trying. Either you are not doing a good job or i am genuinely not interested.

First, i don't particularly like being clicked, but my saying so repeatedly doesn't stop you from clicking anyway. Ok, i can take that. But atleast have the decency to share the pictures with the people you have clicked! How much effort does it take to upload it to picassa before you start talking about my funny expressions in the pictures!!!

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Here i am...

...waiting to fly back home, with another trip back looming large...
...and now that it's almost time to go back home, i can't stop but think of how these three months were for me. So, this trip was not one of my favourite times in life, and the biggest reason for that is the expectations that i came with. Things that happened were not supposed to happen, and things that did not, were what i was looking forward to most when coming here.
I have this way of dealing with problems, maybe not the best but works for me; just start ignoring them, don't try to solve everything, don't try to set everything straight, let things take their own course, just don't stop life's happy moments from occuring because you were trying to look for closure on something not needed anyway.
I did just that, went ahead and filled in as much fun as i possibly could. Had packed weekends, till the Plan B's and C's sometimes. My train journies were used in solving puzzles rather than staring into infinity and sulking. My walks had me smiling to other people rather than just returning their smiles as earlier.
What made the whole thing so much easier was that work was better than ever, it kept me busy as it could and there was always more to do and learn. Efforts were recognised, responsibilities grew, and it gave me umpteen such times when i could justify the decision of leaving my previous company and taking a break from everything. Over this whole period of leaving that place and the break and joining this new place, i have realised that if there is just one thing that can make you look forward to going to work, it is enough to take you forward with it. When there are repeated thoughts about why do i have to go to work, and can i not go today, and the 'wow! that is so cool' thought has not come to mind in a long long time at work, it's time to move on to more exciting things. I had stayed in that kind of stagnated stage at my previous workplace for so long, i stayed till i could take it no more, i should have left it a lot earlier and i could have done without the break probably. But the stage that i had reached there, i needed all that time to unwind. And finally looking back at it, i like it all, i wouldn't want to not join that workplace if i was back to that time again. There are quite a few changes in me that i attribute to it, so many experiences that are my favourites, and just the feeling of being associated with it and some of the times and people there, makes me feel good. Things were good while they lasted, and i ask for no more. There are new experiences waiting to happen, and i am all eager for what's coming.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

...

a call home and a choco chip ice-cream cake, and everything is good again. Till its time for the next one that is!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

HATE IT, HATE IT, HATE IT

I absolutely hate it, to the highest degree!!! Nothing gets on my nerve more than when ppl try to get protective of me. Especially so when we barely know each other. Uhh! just leave me alone.. that's why i liked it so much better without the phone.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Love is in the air!

love is in the air
its nice to see so many couples so happy
and all these happy couples having babies
its always nice to have babies
'coz babies take care of you when you grow old
and 15th of may is tulasiprasad dholakia's b'day
so this next song request coming from gangadhar is dedicated to him
and i'll wish him on air on the 15th of May

ROTFL! best RJ in the world she is i say. This was even more hilarious than that other love guru guy trying to tell a girl that she needs to stop fighting with her mother-in-law.
But seriously, after good connectivity to the shiny new international airport, what hyderabad needs most is good radio stations and good RJs.

Monday, April 21, 2008

So far away

Either i don't know what missing somebody means, or i really don't miss them. But one thing is for sure, i love them all!
As much as i am loving being in Hyderabad, all by myself, with nobody, absolutely nobody!!

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Long time!

Hi blog,
Long time no see! Well I've been great and in latest news, been going for kickboxing lessons regularly for three weeks now. I did get a chance to put it to some use, when one of those guys who have to give you a shoulder push while passing by, did his thing, i gave him one shot with my elbow. And after that i did not look back to see how hurt he was or was not, just hurried to my destination. It sure did feel awesome.
Well what made me remember my bloggie today was when this question crossed my mind and thought i should put it here for some second opinion. What is better; a lifetime of regret or a lifetime of guilt? I think regret is much easier to handle. What do you think!

Thursday, January 10, 2008

small problems!

Two problems that i have no idea what to do about.

First. I have finally gained proficiency in getting late. Well i worked at it, and now i reach half an hour late for any meetings. In the last few days i was always running late for all my appointments, somehow raced time and managed to reach exactly 30 minutes late for all the appointments. You see old habits die hard, hence the accuracy in being late. Now, being late is not the problem, it is in fact nice. Now i am not the one waiting for everyone (there are some whose late coming standards i will never be able to reach, i'm not even going to try, i'll just wait). The problem i have is that i still feel soo guilty everytime i am late. I want to be an unapologetic latecomer too, HELP!!!!!!!!

My second problem seems unsurmountable to me, any wise tips are most welcome. I have a one and a half year old nephew, who is such a darling, he likes my company more than his mother's :) So he clings to me all the time at home, keeps following me whereever i go, from this room to that, keeps knocking continuously on the bathroom door also for me. Now again, this is not the problem, i love all the attention. Atleast somebody gives me so much importance. Where i need help is that, whenever i try to put him to sleep, so then i can get some work done, even i fall asleep with him. WHAT DO I DO!!!!

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Happy new year!

When the year has passed by, it always seems like it went by so fast. That is usually how it is, but last year wasn't so. I did not like the year at all, it almost seemed like a never ending one to me. Now that it's finally gone, i don't want to list the number of things that i hate about the previous year. Although i have never celebrated the new year, but the new year's eve was usually marked by some amount of excitement related to it. The fact that i was not at a new year's eve bash did not mean that i was not doing the countdown in my head. But this year it was on the 3rd of jan that i realised that 2008 had arrived and only one good thing had happened in the year gone by, my brother getting married. I was so busy with my brother's wedding arrangements, i had not sat still in a month. Have never been so busy, and never felt so responsible around the house. Being the youngest one in the family, i hardly ever got to know how much work was involved in my sisters' weddings. But this time since i was the only one at home, i did everything from the start to finish. It was on the 2nd of jan when all the guests had left that i finally slept for 12 hrs at a stretch.

Through the whole thing, my opinions about a wedding were strengthened manyfolds. I can tolerate being married, but going through the wedding ceremony,,ufff!! And this is about a muslim wedding, the least amount of rites and rituals, actually almost nil. It's plain and simple, ask the girl and the boy if they want to get married to each other and the wedding is over. The crux of the whole thing is just that, but there are so many frills attached. For just hearing those two affirmations and a few signatures, we literally spend money like it grows on trees. I fail to see the point that parents try to make, in making it as grand an affair as possible. If you ask me, it is one of the worst things to be spending your money on. Think about it, you splurge all you saved, all for one single day, and come out married at the end of it!!! Does anything about it sound wise.

But anyway that's how things go around in the world, and that's how they'll probably stay, i just wish my bro and bhabhi have a great life together. And now i have such little time to bring certain things back on track. I just hope i can make it to the deadlines.