For the better or for the worse, change is inevitable. This list that i got from Bride's blog some time back was very inviting, because i thought i scored fairly well on it. So here goes my analysis on the 20 things to let go of in your 20's.
1. The phone numbers of people you should never have the option to contact again if and when temptation strikes, social media connections with people you feel you have to constantly prove yourself to, and the general presence of those who you’ve simply outgrown.
There is one person who fits the bill of ‘never have the option to contact again if and when temptation strikes” and I did delete the phone number, emails, messages and anything else that I could find directly connected. I had the number on the tip of my tongue once, but I was happy to note one fine day that I could no longer recollect it.
I never felt the need to prove myself to anyone, actually I consider myself to be in the 93rd to 94th percentile in whatever it is that I do. Don’t ask me how I came to the number, but all that it means to me is that I do anything to the level that i’m happy with the result and I’m still enjoying what I do, not beating myself up to be the best. So none in the category of people I have to prove myself to.
‘Presence of people that I’ve outgrown’, not fared very well on this. There are some that I’ve clearly outgrown but just can’t seem to let go, for the sole reason that I don’t want to let go of my connection to that period of life that they belong to. Also, some that I did manage to delete, but couldn’t say no twice when they sent a reminder for the friend request nor could i leave two messages in a row unanswered. Don’t want to be rude.
2. The timelines you crafted for yourself in the past. There’s no right time for anything, and what’s most painful is being attached to what’s “supposed-to-be” as opposed to whatever is.
I wasn’t exactly what you would call a dreamy person ever, but I never had any timelines for myself either. I just always had a general sense of security that I would make the right decisions to suit the time. Don’t think i’ve done flawlessly on this decision making through every step, but fared quite well.
3. Speaking ill of people for leisure. Making commodity of someone’s life over drinks or at a party is not only something you shouldn’t have done in high school, but should have left back there if you did.
Don’t think I ever did any amount of bitching for leisure. Sure I have dissected another person’s life or decisions, and may have spoken something that I couldn't say to their face; but mostly only as a rant when it gets beyond me or a clean-hearted discussion with a close friend. Don’t think I can ever be comfortable doing a bitching session.
4. Waiting for a relationship to save you, because doing so is a dangerously unstable foundation on which you’ll end up building the rest of your life.
No, never did I think in my 20s that a relationship would save me. I was in fact scared of them to some extent. Although now I’ve regressed a bit on that, as I feel extremely dependent on my husband for a lot of things including emotional strength.
5. The old stuff on your résumé, like the service work you did in high school or the club you belonged to for a week your freshman year of college. Nobody cares about it professionally, and probably not personally either.
I was cutting down my resume to fit into a single page, and cut out all the old stuff from it.
6. Remnants of former loves that you keep around because you’re still holding onto a part of them. You can say they’re sentimental things you’ll want to have in the future, but the reality is that if they only serve to remind you of something that’s missing in your life, you can do without them.
I think i only kept the memories alive, there are no physical remnants that i keep around; of former loves or anything that i've let go of from my life.
7. Feeling as though you are obligated to be the person someone else sees you as. It doesn’t matter if it’s your parents, your former self or someone you love, you can respect all of those authorities and still realize that you are not required to be anybody but who you choose to be in the present moment.
I feel exactly as though i am obligated to be the person that my parents see me as! Big Fail!!
8. The need to always have the last word and win every argument.
I surely have learnt to let someone else have the last word, and I eventually do come to making peace with it. But I still cannot let go of the devil’s advocate in me.
9. Abusing your body with crash diets, dangerously excessive alcohol consumption, disregard for what nourishment means, etc. It doesn’t prove that you’re cool because you’re “reckless but in control”– it just shows that you aren’t being responsible or realistic about your body or health.
Yes off the excessive alcohol, respect my health and all.
10. Financial dependency, because there’s a difference between receiving help when you genuinely need it and using someone under the guise of it.
Just can’t do without complete financial independence!
11. Deciding who you are based on upward and downward comparisons to people, or worse – believing that you are the projection of what you assume other people think of you.
I've suffered from minor self-esteem issues, which mostly stemmed from how accomplished or not, i was feeling in that period of time. It helped that i always had positive reinforcement from people around. As i am writing this, i realise that without giving much thought, i always did a few things to overcome this issue. I would involve myself in varied activities and i would take a lot of exams. These things made me feel accomplished because the different activities gave shades to my personality and scoring well on those exams boosted my confidence in myself. I'm not sure how much of this issue was because of comparisons to people. It seems to me that it was mostly internal, but either way i got a lot more secure in myself over time.
12. What success means. Not being able to pursue a passion in the same way you support yourself is not a mark of failure. But not being able to incorporate those passions into your life outside of work usually is.
My passions have taken a backseat since my baby came along, but I was quite happy with not pursuing my passion professionally and keeping it personal for just the enjoyment they brought to me.
13. Excessive consumption, and spending as a means of validating self worth. You are not what you have nor are you what you can convince other people you are.
Nope, am not a materialistic person. But I do enjoy spending on nice restaurants and luxurious holidays.
14. The idea that you’re “above” any kind of work. Entitlement regarding what kind of job you should have is a real thing. In my book, doing whatever it takes to provide for yourself is a
success in that it’s a display of one’s resiliency and character.
If I were to lose my current job and not find anything that befits my resume, then I do have a couple of backup professions in my mind. Would I do whatever it takes to provide for myself? Given my patience I would think ‘yes’.
15. Being too passive about things that very much matter to you and then getting upset when they go ignored by the people to whom you should have voiced your opinion.
Husband’s nagging about this trait of mine is showing some positive effects, and I’m now either a little less passive or a little less upset.
16. Anxiety over the way your body fills out– or doesn’t– as you enter adulthood. Fat is not a thing you are, it’s a thing you have, and having too much or too little does not make you any less capable of the things that genuinely matter. The body is just a vessel.
Nope, never had any body image issues.
17. The illusion of control. You can work hard, be devoted, care infinitely, and things could still crumble. Nothing hurts worse than spending your life desperately grasping at having a kind of control that is only viable by delusion.
The only illusion of control that I have is this idea of detachment from everything / everyone. But I do have my doubts about it sometimes that I’m not so much in control of myself as I think I am.
18. The desire to settle because you’d rather not be alone. You will pay for it eventually.
I still do think of myself as someone who can comfortably live alone.
19. Insulting people’s life choices out of your own resentment and bitterness. People who get married young, or work at jobs that pay well but aren’t fulfilling are easy targets, but are ultimately neither inherently sad nor wrong, though neither is doing the opposite. But the need to insult them is almost always a reflection of yourself (and p.s. I’m guilty of it).
Not insulting, but I have this tendency to offer what i think are better options, to any troublesome situation people might describe to me. They don’t always need my solutions, and some might find it offending too. Have made conscious efforts, to not offer a solution unless asked for.
20. Acting on the idea that any other person is beneath you, especially for what they think, feel or believe. There’s a lot to be said about a person who can discuss an issue with someone who inherently disagrees, and a lot more to be said about a person who can’t.
I take my time forming a judgment on someone, but once I’ve made up my mind it’s quite strong and does make me think of them as beneath me sometimes. There have been instances when I’ve drastically changed my opinion of someone but I surely do judge people negatively if they give me enough reason to. Out of all these 20 points I think I never did ponder on this last one, and although I don’t think I can stop making judgments (after sufficient reasoning of course), but I surely must let go of the slotting people.